I DON'T WANT TO

I don't want
to cry
my eyes hold back the tears from falling,
to smile
I lost the luster to do it because of too much pain.

I don't want
to love
my heart is empty and has no feeling,
to hate
I'm clueless as to whom I will blame.

I don't want
to share
my poor soul is what I left for me,
to ask
everyone is closing their ears.

I don't want
to live
my world becomes upside down,
to die
for I don't know who am I.